MATCHBOX20 - MAD SEASON (2000)
So scream you, out from behind the bitter ache
You're hanging on the memory you need most
You still want love, love's ugly, smooth and delicate
But not without affection, not alone
And instead of wishing that it would get better
Man you're seeing that you just get angrier
And it's good that I'm not angry
I need to get over
I'm, I'm not angry, anymore
Cry when you cry, run when you run
Love when you love
Now represent the ashes
That you leave behind
And instead of wishing that the road had shoulder
Man you're seeing that you're sinking over time
And it's good that I'm not angry
I need to get over
I'm, I'm not angry
It's dragging me under
But I'm, I'm not angry, angry
I'm, I'm not angry it's never been enough
It gets inside and it tears you up
I'm not angry and I've never been above it
You see through me don't you
And it's good that I'm not angry
I need to get over
I'm, I'm not angry
I'm not angry
One more day down
Everybody has those days
Where one soft sweet song's
Just enough to clear my head
Fall on real life, is anybody left there sane?
If we slide on over and accept fate
Then it's bound to be a powerful thing
If it's just that you're weak, can we talk about it
It's gettin' so damn creepy just nursing this ghost of a chance
The fiction, the romance and the Technicolor dreams
Of black and white people
One boy head strong
Thinks that living here's just plain
He's pushed down so hard
You can hear him start to sink
And it's one last round of petty conversation
You hold on boy cuz you won't go down like this?
Just roll on over, lay down till it's more than you can take
If it's just that you're weak, can we talk about it
It's gettin' so damn creepy just nursing this ghost of a chance
The fiction, the romance and the Technicolor dreams
Of black and white people
So one more day down
And everybody's changing
One soft sweet song's
Just enough to clear my my head
If it's just that you're weak, can we talk about it
It's gettin' so damn creepy just nursing this ghost of a chance
The fiction, the romance and the Technicolor dreams
Of black and white people
f it's just that you're weak, can we talk about it
It's gettin' so damn creepy just nursing this ghost of a chance
The fiction, the romance and the Technicolor dreams
Of black and white people
We are black and white
We are black and white people
We are black and white people
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from
Man I feel like hell so come on over
Be a love machine and I could be your friend
Ain't no shame feel strong for one another
Make a real true color come end to end then
God damn. change of pace
I think there's still a piece of my heart
On your face
It's a shame to let it waste
How does it taste?
How does it taste?
Break it down in pieces, make it simple
'Cause you know damn well that I'm a simple man
All these things go changing like the weather
And they stay that way until the weather man says
One down, gone to waste
I think there's still a piece of that smile on your face
And I would like it erased
There ain't no two ways about it, no
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from
Bring it on then gone, use a lover
Like a cigarette the way that lovers do
One sweet song that starts a little slow and
Then goes on and on and makes you want to
Move around the room in circles
Everybody wants to be you
Try to find my place up on the map
Of all the men you've been through
Dig a little deeper and you'll realize
All I'm building up you're tearing down.
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down, down, down
And all I needed was a crutch
One step away from down
And I don't ever be your crutch
I could break you down
I don't want to be the crutch
I don't want to be the crutch
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from
This will all fall down like everything else that was
This too shall pass and all of the words we said
We can't take back
Now every fool in town would've left by now
I can't replace all the wasted days
The memory of your face, I can't help thinkin'
Maybe if we ever coulda kept it all together where would we be
A thousand lost forevers and the promises you never were giving me
Here's what I'm thinking
It won't be the first heart that you break
It won't be the last beautiful girl
The one that you wrecked won't take you back
If you were the last beautiful girl in the world
So tell me one more time
How you're sorry about the way this all went down
You needed to find your space
You needed to still be friends
You needed me to
Call you if I ever couldn't keep it all together you'd comfort me
Tell me but forever and the promises I never should have believed in
Here's what I'm thinking
It won't be the first heart that you break
It won't be the last beautiful girl
The one that you wrecked, won't take you back
If you were the last beautiful girl in the world
Last beautiful girl
It's over now and I've gone without
Cause you're everybody else's girl
It seems to me you'll always be
Everyone else's girl
This will all fall down
Like everything in the world
This too must end
And all of the words we said
We can't take back
It won't be the first heart that you break
It won't be the last beautiful girl
The one that you wrecked, won't take you back
If you were the last beautiful girl
It won't be the first heart that you break
It won't be the last beautiful girl
The one that you wrecked, won't take you back
If you were the last beautiful girl in the world
Last beautiful girl in the world
I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak, I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed, I can't be sure
I think you're so mean, I think we should try
I think I could need, this in my life
I think I'm just scared, I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing
If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home, come home
Cause there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need more than you mind
I think you're so mean, I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm just scared, that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem
I'm feeling
If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home, come home
There's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
I think you're so mean, I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life and
I think I'm just scared, do I talk too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm dealing
If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home, come home
There's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
Something me in everything in you
I feel stupid, but I know it won't last for long
I've been guessing, I coulda been guessin' wrong
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down
I feel stupid but it's something that comes and goes
And I've been changing, think it's funny how no one knows
We don't talk about the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around
So why ya gotta stand there looking like the answer now
It seems to me you'd come around, I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season
I feel stupid, but I think I been catchin' on
I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on
You grow colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down
So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out
We need to be together now, I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season
Now I'm crying, isn't that what you want
And I'm tryin' to live my life on my own, but I won't
No, at times I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do I, I, I feel stupid
And I came undone
Well, I come undone
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season
In this mad season
It's been a mad season
Been a mad season
Just three miles from the rest stop
And she slams on the breaks
She said I tried to be but I'm not
And could you please collect your things
I don't wanna be cold, I don't wanna be cruel
But I gotta find more than what's happening with you
If you'd open up the door
She said while you were sleeping
I was listening to the radio
And wondering what you're dreaming when
It came to mind that I didn't care
And I thought hell if it's over
I had better end it quick
Or I could lose my nerve
Are you listening, can you hear me
Have you forgotten
Just three miles from the rest stop
And my mouth's too dry to rage
The light was shining from the radio
I could barely see her face
But she knew all the words that I never had said
She knew the crumpled-up promise of this broken down man
And as I opened up the door
She said while you were sleeping
I was listening to the radio and wondering what you're dreaming when
It came to mind that I didn't care
And I thought hell if it's over
I had better end it quick
Or I could lose my nerve
Are you listening, can you hear me
While you were sleeping
I was listening to the radio
And wondering what you're dreaming when
It came to mind that I didn't care
And I thought hell if it's over
I had better end it quick
Or I could lose my nerve
Are you listening, can you hear me
While you were sleeping
I was listening to the radio
And wondering what you're dreaming when
It came to mind that I didn't care
I thought hell if it's over
I had better end it quick
Or I could lose all my nerve
Are you listening, can you hear me
I thought about
Leaving, but I couldn't even get outta bed
I'm hanging cause I couldn't get a ride outta town
Now anyone who really wanted me to be down
Come around
I thought about
Singing, but I couldn't remember all of the words
Breaking, but I couldn't get the pieces apart
Laughing never knowing what the joke was about
Now I'm down
And I wonder how I never got the burn
And if I'm ever gonna learn
How lonely people make a life
One strain at a time
Forgot About
Everything and everyone I needed before
Trying to get a handle on a reason to shine
Picking up the pieces that are falling behind takes time
So I wonder how I never got the burn
And if I'm ever gonna learn
How lonely people make a life
One strain at a time and still shine
So I wonder how I never got the burn
And if I'm ever gonna learn
How lonely people make a life
All this time I wonder how I never got the burn
And if I'm ever gonna learn
How lonely people make their life
One strain at a time and still shine
If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off.
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
And I understand
Hell, I go there again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning, I am
Don't think that I can take another empty moment
Don't think that I can fake another hollow smile
It's not enough just to be lonely
Don't think that I could take another talk about it
Just like me you got needs
And they're only a whisper away
And we softly surrender
To these lives that we've tendered away
No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And they'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I'm marking it down to learning, cause I am
Don't wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over
Don't wanna be somewhere where I just don't belong
Where it's not enough just to be sorry
Don't you know I feel the darkness closing in
Tried to be more than me
And I gave 'til it all went away
And we've only surrendered
To the worst part of these winters that we've made
But I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And they'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I'm marking it down to learning, I am
I am all that I'll ever be
When you lay your hands over me
And don't go weak on me please
I know that it's weak
But God help me I need this
I will not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And they'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I'm marking it down to learning, cause I am
It's amazing
How you make your face just like a wall
How you take your heart and turn it off
How I turn my head and lose it all
It's unnerving
How just one move puts me by myself
There you go just trusting someone else
Now I know I put us both through hell
I'm not saying
There wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying
We ever had the right to hold on
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me
But if that's how it's gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
It's aggravating how you threw me on and you tore me out
How your good intentions turned to doubt
The way you needed time to sort it out
And I'm not saying
There wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying
We ever had the right to hold on
I just couldn't ever let you get away from me
But if that's how you're gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
And I'm not saying
There wasn't nothing wrong
I didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
But if that's how you're gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
Hell well, tell me is that how it's gonna end
When you know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out
I'm the one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving now
Yes it's true that I believe
I'm weaker than I used to be
I wear my heart out on my sleeve
And I forget the rest of me
Yes there's times I've been afraid
And there's no harm in that I pray
Cuz I'm more frightened everyday
Someone will take the hope I have away
But you gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get get off sometimes I know
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get get off sometimes I know
All the times I've given in
You fit me like a second skin
And one by one I will begin
To wear you on the days I'm feeling thin
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get get off sometimes I know
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get get off sometimes I know
You'd better stop, stop, stop using me up
You'd better stop cause I've had enough
And I'm ready to forget the reasons that keep me here
You'd better stop, stop, stop using me up
You'd better stop cause I've had enough
And I'm ready to forget the reasons, the reasons that keep me here
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get off sometimes
You gotta give it up to get get off sometimes I know
Take your head around the world
See what you get
From your mind
Write your soul down word for word
See who's your friend and who is kind
Well, it's almost like a disease
And I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you'll be strong
You'll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no, oh no, no you won't be mine
Take your straight line for a curve
Make it stretch, the same old line
Try to find if it was worth what you spent
Why you're guilty for the way you're feeling now
It's almost like being free
And I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you'll be strong
You'll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no, oh no, no you won't be mine
Take yourself out to the curb
Sit and wait
A fool for life
It's almost like a disease
I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you'll be strong
You'll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no, oh no, no you won't be mine