DEUS - THE IDEAL CRASH (1999)
So you're suffering
I know it hurts a lot if it's the first time
Whenever I begin
Make sure to keep my empathy inside
The harder that it gets
The more the company will do you all in
Here comes another hit
It's just a slow way of falling
You place your frown
Heavely down on me and
Try make me weak
Too lame to speak, I
Only 'cause of love Push me don't calm me, can't win just blame me
Love's the only thing that makes me do this We're on the edge of something, something
No power from above That says if your able
You do it to yourself survive this we've made it
I'll help you through this It's out of my system, it hit while our playing
There's beauty in this place It helped me I'm staying
It took me all these years to realise these blows mark a new deal
The truth is the threat's real
Hype up and go hatch a plan do you know what this means to me?
Tag onto someone who can you've respect and no dignity. Do you?
Believe it
Noble designs slip away with your backs to the outside you'll burn
Slide into morbid decay your bubble won't block out the sun
I'm leaving
Come and feel what it does to me
So much more than fantasy
Put your panic on a hold, amplify your very soul
And keep breathing
So you're suffering
I know it hurts a lot if it's the first time
Whenever I begin
Make sure to keep my empathy inside.
The agony preserved
Your eyes are slowly losing all their softness
The alcohol and thyme
So good must be a crime
I see you're fighting
Oh my sweet Sister Dew what have I done?
All my life I've only loved the one
I was taught to be tolerant and plain
I was taught a million things I can't explain
It must have been the hatred in her eyes
It must have been the power to her lies
Sister tell me there's a place where I can hide
Oh my sweet this is how it did unfold
No my body never felt so calm and cold
All around us there were people in the park
No my senses never felt so clear and stark
And I know that she saw it in my way
And I'm sure that she heard it in my voice
Sister tell me please I didn't have a choice
I enjoyed to see her being idle
She never had no worries, nothing vital
From the day I met her to the final afternoon
There was something there I can't describe it
We were kicking ass, we didn't fight it
She never once suspected, that she had it coming soon
Oh my sweet Sister Dew what have I done?
All my life I've only loved the one
I was raised with compassion and they said
I was loved for the loving that I spread
Now the only thing remaining is this chill
And the only emptiness I need to fill
Is understanding what it is that made me kill
Please forgive me if I keep on smiling
But every sad story has a funny side in
From that moment on I felt like crying every day
All around us there were people screaming
For half a second I thought I was dreaming
My baby looked at me her eyes were beaming
I walked away.
Oh my sweet Sister Dew what have I done?
All my life I've never loved no one
So it dawned on me this should be the place
Now the only thing I crave is an embrace
So let your tender wisdom be mine
And let me come to you like a child
I'd like to stick around here for a while
Wasted and wounded, erased with the night
One man's conviction is another man's lie
I said you could find me where the nighthawks fly
And I'll be there a while
Yrs I'll be there a while
Dustpaper coupons, there's a guy by the door
He said: "What makes me quit makes you go back for more"
This place isn't real man, this girl is a whore
Watch me fall to the floor
But I'll go back for more
Sometimes I wander
So I finally found you, and I lost you to love
No it sure wasn't this I was thinkin' of
Put your silhouette on me and your sweetness above
And I can't get enough
No I can't get enough
Wasted and wounded, this ain't no way to die
One man's cold turkey is another man's high
I said you could find me where the nighthawks fly
And I'll be there a while
Yes I'll be there a while
Sometimes I wander
Down on the floor
Got a closer look at hell
You see, somebody pushed me
I just pretended that I fell
I said that I adored you
But I could never tell
For all that I know I'll be gone when you go
Music went through you and took you to a place
There ain't no doubt you find a welcoming embrace
I said that I loved you, another hawk in space
And you'll be there for a while
And I'll be there for a while
Finding my own inarticulate prose
Weirding out strangers and laughing at those
Jaundiced and jaded, postured and posed
Not that we're special, it's just that we're
Closing in on a place where we might get to be
Living real people regularly
Send you some stuff and be good like you asked
Must promise remember the sixth and the last
The sixth and the last, the sixth and the last
The sixth and the last, the sixth and the last
I had a plan, was all made up
An angel was sent for keeping all troubles away
'Cause lady and I, we could not stop
As cool as a sigh, as volatile as something you say
I had a dream, a simple plot
I held out my hand as if she'd never pushed it away
The sun is still there, except it's not
Beside her I care to linger even though it's not safe
Godawful I adore you
Angels were there before you
Nothing can stop what we do
It's breaking us up in two
Hey maybe should we ask it could our friends be worthier
Like things we trust for if we must
We must burn them
And burn them good, real friends they would
Be understanding if it came to us
And us we must, we must turn to
The God of small things
The God of small things
I had a plan, was all made up
As good it was then the magic hour seemed to be fading
'Cause lady and I we could not stop as cool as a sigh
As murderous as something you say
Godawful I adore you
Angels were there before you
Nothing can stop what we do
It's breaking us up in two
There is room if you can trust
For anyone like us
There is room if you can trust
For anyone like us
There is room if you can trust
For anyone like us
Stay by my side, it's over
The ride isn't what I told you
The painkiller-side of this night
Is to not look behind it's over
I have been told about longing
A feeling so old. it's dead
I must have been misled
So stay be my side. I'm sorry
I'm drawing myself the ideal crash
but I know I won't believe me
There'll be a time you'll leave me
Stay by my side. it's sexy
The way that we talk about stuff
The way that we laugh with love
The way that we're falling off
Crash, you're life's been sucking
'Cause you wanna mess around
Can anybody down you with a
Crash
Another way of saying that you
Like to make it up as you move along
If it's a lot, show them what you got
Stay by my side. I want you
Continue the theme that's us
Even though it's only lust
The painkiller-side of this life
I'm drawing myself the ideal crash
And I know I won't believe me.
How can a man kill gently
And how long before it's all done
How can he leave someone
How can he do it softly?
Crash, you're life's been sucking
'Cause you wanna mess around
Can anybody down you with a
Crash
Another way of saying that you
Like to make it up as you move along
If it's a lot, show them what you got
Crash
You're gonna go to hell with a certain inclination
Try and make it sell and then you
Crash
You're gonna have to take yourself out of circulation
Into something else
If it's a lot, show them what you got
Right now I need my hands, to cover this shit up
I need my eyes to see where I'm going
And I need someone
Stay by my side, it's sexy
The way that we talk about stuff
The way that we laugh with love
The way that we're falling off
You're probably right, seen from your side
That I've been lucky
But I've been meaning to crack all week
Yes I've been involved, it never resolved
Into anything shocking
Pains playing yoyo in my body as we speak
And now I found something to look for
But I can't decide
'Cause I might find that to stroll behind
Is better than to score
Just like I did before
It wouldn't be true, not towards you
To say that I'm staying
When on every single impulse
On every other move I react
'Cause in any old creek
With changing technique
You'll see me playing
After any old motherfucking blow I'll be back
We turned away from instant stuff
Our cracking codes were breaking up
Our words were sucked out it made them clean
And after lowness say it
And after more let it be known
Our codes are grown into something mean
You're probably right, as for tonight
You're making me nervous
What is it you want me to be thinking of?
I'll put on a movie
I'll play something groovy
As a matter of service
And I'll chuckle when you smile
As a matter of love
And you know it's not my style
To be giving up now
This pain in my side
I had enough
This time I go for Instant Street
This life’s a soulless excuse
For all abuse and parenthesis
The flyspecked windows and the stinking lobbies
They'll remain all the same, all the same
This time I go
This time I go
You drive too fast
Can you please shut up
I'll call the police
If you don't stop
You're just trying to scare me
You want me to know
That you're not this precious
Little thing you hold.
You're afraid you say and you're never sure
Of the coming day if what you've seen before
And I'm not that handsome is what you'll see again
Anyway in remembering
But I'm feeling good
And if you don't exist
You're still one illusion
That I can't resist
Now you're holding back
And I'm holding on
Heaven knows what you want
'Cause kicks like these
They're coming fast
But watching how long they last.
It's a funny time
To fall in love
Feels like something pulled me up
To see me fall right off
You drive too fast
But I don't care
Wherever's fine
Just take me there
Now I'm holding back
And you're moving on
Heaven knows what I want
'Cause on a day like this
I'd believe anything
I don't know where to begin
One for your coming
Two for your shoes
Your buccaneer loving
And suicide moods
I wanna move
Don't figure out much
Into the new
Out of the blue
Out of the darkness
Out of the blue
Out of the darkness
Out of the blue
Out of the darkness
Out of the blue
Out of the darkness
Out of the blue
Out of the darkness
Out of the blue
Out of the darkness
Into the new,
Out of the blackness
Everybody's weird
So everybody came, but you're here to have some fun
And everyone's the same, well that's faster said than done
And you're such a lovely guy, but it doesn't take so much
To get all there is out, all the dirt and all the sludge
You're stepping on my sun
And it's such a lot of fun
Better smile before it's gone
You're stepping on my sun
Everybody's weird
Everybody's a weird guy
And the liquor that you had is playing twister with your mind
You been artificially sad, but never naturally high
I was flashing on a thought, on a party in this town
If I said what’s on my mind, there’d be not a soul around.
You're stepping on my sun
Everybody's weird
And it's such a lot of fun
Better smile before it's gone
You're stepping on my sun
Everybody's weird
Everybody's a weird guy
Everybody's a weird guy
Everybody's weird
It's easier to trust if it comes down to this my friend
I will help you if I must
I will kill you if I can
Experience is cheap
And you know that in the end
I will kill you if I must
I will help you if I can
You're stepping on my sun
And it's such a lovely gun
Better smile before it's gone
You're stepping on my sun
Everybody's weird
'Cause everybody's weird
And they all think they're God
But the biggest one they fear is that precious thing you got
The fire in your eyes is a subtlety I know
And you will not be denied, but the service is so slow
You're stepping on my sun and it's such a lovely gun
Yetter smile before it's gone, you're stepping on my sun
Everybody's weird
Everybody's a weird guy
Everybody's weird
Everybody's a weird guy
I was walking down the river
Playing solitary quiver
I was thinking about a million different lives
She came dancing up a mountain
Spread her whiteness like a fountain
And a hint of broken turquoise in her eyes
She came all the way to say I didn't stand
A single chance the state that I was in
I said: "Your soul is a-swaying"
She said: "Hey that's a pretty saying
But unfortunately it is not true"
She said: "You're just looking for another to love you"
Now we all know the world is dying
And expenses multiplying
But you could try to take it easy too
Let me take you for a ride
I will take you for a ride
'Cause in time
You'll be mine
When you're mine
It'll be oh so fine yeah!
At the time I wasn't feeling that good
At the time I wasn't feeling that good
I wasn't longing for a strange delight
I wasn't flashing on the dark of night
I wasn't going for no periodic mood
I wasn't suffering no odd decease
I never thought of it as no unease
But when it called me I just had to let it loose
It never made me wonder or even think
Just merely tapping tapping on my instinct
It left me there but I wasn't left to choose
Now I heard stories about this kind of thing
It haphazardly just sucks you in
Makes you do stuff you never thought you'd do
One night it drove me to despair
What if anybody had seen me there?
To this day I still wonder how they knew
They started spreading rumours about my state
You know how it goes around this place
Now and then they just need someone to screw
My senses numb but I could feel
Four, five years been taken out of me
If you'd ask me, there's no way I could prove
The smell of hysteria was chemical
The air around me thick and physical
My mind was racing but myself I couldn't move
It had me running, running, running, running
Now I heard stories this kind of thing
It doesn't lose it just let's you win
Eith a little bit of luck
You don't come out too bruised
Such anger that I couldn't vent
So much energy I couldn't spend
It would have fucked me over if
I hadn't cut it loose
Yeah
I wasn't suffering no odd decease
I never thought of it as no unease
Next time it calls me I'll be ready
'Cause I know
I'll be ready
I'll be ready
My little dreamone, you O.K.?
I'm thinking about you everyday
Along with your smile, I took my belongings
Along with the sunshine, I went away
There is a space here, there is a void
I need to find, a little more time, gimme time
Of all of the fuckups that I do
I've saved up the best one for you
Heaven and moonshine, you gotta be kidding
You wanted to give it a try and I didn't
I never wanted to be looking back
I need to find a little more insight, gimme insight
I'm getting better everyday
I just don't care what they say
People are talking, they were talking before
They don't even know who we are anymore
I never wanted to be looking back
I need to find, some peace of mind, gimme peace of mind
My little dreamone, you O.K.?
I'm thinking about you everyday
Along with your smile, I took my belongings
Along with the sunshine, I went away
There is a space here, there is a void
I need to find a little more time, gimme time
Whispered in
The way you cling
We find made
Our special thing
Stone Madly I
Hellbent on my
Coming for you