EVERCLEAR - SONGS FROM AN AMERICAN MOVIE - VOLUME 2: GOOD TIME FOR A BAD ATTITUDE (2000)
Yes, I think it's safe to say
I feel good about the place
That I have made in the world today
I get all sticky inside
When I close my eyes
And I open up wide
I see pictures in the clouds
So obscene, I gotta laugh out loud
I look back to find my way
And reminisce nice about the good old days
Yeah, when I saw my brother above me
I remembered the words he said
"When you dream you hit bottom
Chances are good you're gonna wake up dead"
I will be up on top when the sky falls down
And it all goes wrong again
Yeah, I will be sitting on top
When it all goes wrong again
Yeah, I will be sitting on top
When it all goes wrong
Yes, I think it's safe to say
I feel good about the sin
That I inflict on my own skin
I pay money to cut and burn
Pictures like lessons
That I need to learn
I see faces on the ceiling
I see them move
I hear them singing
I lay down laughing here by myself
And think about the time that I spent in hell
When I saw my brother below me
I remembered the words he said
"When you need to wake up happy
You better sleep right in your own warm bed"
I will be singing in the rain
When my bed's on fire
And it all goes wrong again
I will be singing in the rain
When it all goes wrong again
I will be singing in the rain
When it all goes wrong
Where are you gonna be
When it all comes down?
What are you going to do
When it all comes down?
Where are you gonna be
When it all comes down?
What are you gonna do
When it all comes down on you?
Sitting on top of the world
When it all goes wrong again
I will be sitting on top of the world
When it all goes wrong again
I will be sitting on top when the sky falls down
When it all goes wrong again
I will be sitting on top
When it all goes wrong again
I will be sitting on top
When it all goes wrong again
Again and again
I will be sitting on top
When it all goes wrong.
Yeah, when it all goes wrong again
Oh, when it all goes wrong again, oh
When it all goes wrong again
When it all goes wrong again
When it all goes wrong again
When it all goes wrong again
We were fading like the bottom of a bad dream
We were heading south looking for a good time
Faces look so pretty in the spotlight
All blown out and bathed inside a world of white
Sometimes I feel like I am holding it together
Sometimes I feel like everything is fine
Sometimes I feel like I'm out of control
I feel like I am falling
Like my life is on a slide
Slide, slide, slide, slide
It was sunny on the streets
Down there by the water
We worked get hammered on the beach
Right down by the water
She was slightly out of reach
A rich man's only daughter
I think she slept with me
Just so she could piss off her father
I am elastic, I am easy with the damage
I am estatic, I am hungry for the climb
Sometimes I feel like I am falling apart
I feel like I am falling
Like my life is on a slide
Slide, slide, slide, slide
I know it's wrong but I just can't seem to act my age
I know it's wrong but I just can't seem to control my rage
My heart is racing and I am losing my mind
Sometimes I feel like my life is on a slide, slide
Those faces look so scary in the harsh light
All blown out and bathed inside a world of white
We were shining like the good part of a bad time
We were laughing, happy just to be along for the ride
Sometimes I feel like I am really lucky
I have made it through bruised and scarred and half alive
Sometimes I feel like I'm out of control
I feel like I am falling
Like my life is on a slide
Slide
Yes I know it's wrong but I just can't seem to act my age
Yes I know it's wrong but I just can't seem to control my rage
My hear is racing and I am losing my mind
Sometimes I feel like my life is on a slide
This is a song about Spike
He is a bad ass guy
Who just happens to be
A really good friend of mine
Everyone I know, yeah
Who knows Spike too
Would agree when I say the words
That Spike is cool
The problem withn my friend Spike
He has fallen into
A true love with a nice girl
Who has gotta lot of tattoos
He always talks crazy
Whenever she calls
He always talks like a baby
It's obvious
She has got him by the balls
She has got him by the balls
Yeah, She has got him by the balls
My weird little brother, James
And his ex-girlfriend
They would talk in those ridiculous voices
We would all be hanging out
Getting drunk in the neighborhood
And they both would make those ridiculous noises
He would always talk crazy
Whenever she calls
He always talks like a baby
It is obvious
They have got him by the balls
I hate you when you talk like that
I wish you could act like a grown man
I hate you when you talk like that
I wish you could act like a grown man
I hate you when you talk like that
I wish you could act like a grown man
I hate you when you talk like that
I wish you could act like a grown man
You will never see me walking that walk
You will never catch me talking that babytalk
Which brings me back to Spike
A good guy to have in a fight
Unless he was with his girlfriend
Obnoxious on a Saturday night
You know he couldn't care less
What anyone thinks
He does not give a damn
No, because he has no shame
He looks so happy
Just like everything is fine
He is oblivious to the fact
That he has no spine
He always talks crazy
You have no shame
Whenever she calls
You have no shame
He talks like a baby
You have no shame
It is obvious
They have got him by the balls
I hate you when you talk like that
I wish you could act like a grown man
I hate you when you talk like that
I wish you could act like a grown man
I hate you when you talk like that
I wish you could act like a grown man
You will never see me walking that walk
You will never catch me talking that babytalk
I am not going to let it get to me
I am not going to let it get to me
They've got you by the balls
Yeah, they've got you by the balls
Yeah, they've got you by the balls
I don't want to be a loser, no
I don't want to be an almost was
I don't want to be a white trash working class chump
I don't want to be a loser anymore
That's why I want to be a rock star
I want to be the king
I want to be on top, yeah
I just want to be a rock star, rock star
Yeah, Now I just want to be famous
I want to be the guy that everybody wants
I want to be on TV shows
And wear designer clothes
I want a girlfriend who does not drink beer
I want to drive a fast car
And sleep with certain movie stars
I want to sing the songs
That all those little people
Want to hear
I just want to be a rock star
I want to be like all those people up in first class
I just want to be a rock star
I want to tell the little people
They can kiss my ass
Yeah, I just want to be a rock star
I just want to get laid
Yeah, I just want to be a rock star
A different girl for every day
That's why I want to be a rock star, rock star
Be like all those guys on the MTV
I just want to be a rock star, rock star
I want to make those girls on the Real World fantasize about me
I just want to be a rock star
I want to be the king
I want to be on top
I just want to be a rock star, rock star
I just want to be famous
Everybody everywhere wants to be famous
And everybody everywhere wishes they could tell
Everybody everywhere to go to Hell
I just want to be a rock star
Yeah, I just want to get high
Yeah, I just want to party like a rock star
Until the day I die
I just want to be a rock star
I just want to be a rock star
I just want to be a rock star
Hey I think this is getting to me
Yeah, first class living in a goldfish bowl
Just when I think I have driven my life where I wanted it to be
Yeah, It takes me to a place that I do not want to go
All I ever wanted to do
Was to learn how to break this world in two
To teach it all the tricks that I wanted it to learn
To teach it how to do what I want it to do
Yeah, no one really understands
Just how simple and plain and predictable I am
Because all I ever wanted to do
Was to play guitar in a rock and roll band
Now I'm just losing my hair and I'm learning how to smile
Like I just don't care
No, I just don't care
I hear them under their breath
No, I just don't care
What they say when they think that I can't hear them
I see them point and I see them stare
There goes that stupid guy
With the short blonde hair
Yeah, I think this is getting to me
First class living in a goldfish bowl
Just when I think I have driven my life where I wanted it to be
It takes me to a place that I don't want to go
All I ever wanted to do
Was to learn how to break ihis world in two
Teach it all the tracks I wanted it to learn
Teach it how to do what I want it to do
No one really understands
Just how simple and plain and predictable I am
Because all I ever wanted real bad
Was to play guitar in a rock and roll band
Now I'm just losing my hair and learning how to smile
No, I just don't care
I hear them under their breath
No, I just don't care
What they say when they think that I can't hear them
I see them point and I see them stare
There goes that stupid guy with the short blonde hair
Short blonde hair
Say la de da de da de da da da
Say la de da de da de da da da
Say la de da de da de da
Walking wounded with a belly full of pain
And a big bad attitude
We are shaking shadows for that perfect dark room
Where we can do just what we wanna do
There is a place where we can leave behind
All those simple minds
They would not like the way we live
When we are all alone
In this house that we call home
You will become my misery whip
Yes, I said like a misery whip
Walking hungry with a pocket full of promise
And a big black song in my head
Yes, I know the answers to my questions
They are purple black and blue
And they are waiting for me in my bed
There is a place where we can leave behind
All those simple minds
They would not like they way we live
When we are all alone
In this house that we call home
You will become my misery whip
I will say it again like a misery whip
Stop
I get no pleasure
When I'm going through the motions
Of my mediocre day to day
I'm just an actor
Just like Robert fucking Redford
When I say those stupid words
That they expect me to say
Yes we can leave behind
All those simple minds
They would not like the dirty things we do
Yeah
When we are all alone
In this house that we call home
I will fall down like a bitch for you
I need you to hit me and make me shake
I need you to hurt me and make me beg for more
I need you to bend me and make me break
I need you to make me feel like I am your whore
I feel complete when I feel sick inside
I feel complete when I feel sick inside
I feel complete when I feel sick inside
I feel complete when I feel sick inside
I need to feel like I am real inside
I need to feel like I am really alive
I need you to make me feel
I need you to make me feel
I need you to make me feel
I need you to make me feel
I need you to make me feel
I need you to make me feel
I need you to make me feel
I need you to hit me and make me shake
I need you to hurt me and make me beg for more
I need you to bend me and make me break
I need you to make me feel
Like we can leave behind
All those simple minds
They would not like the way we live
When we are all alone
In this house that we call home
You will become my misery whip
You will become my misery whip
You will become my friend
You will become my misery whip
You will become my friend
Out of my depth
Lost in the air
Falling faster
Like a broken elevator
Out of my depth
Lost in the dark
Waiting for that other shoe
To come down hard
I cannot communicate
Like I wish I could
I do not deal with my problems
Like I know I should
I am out of my depth
I am out of my league
Watching everything
Just slip away from me
Something bad is going to happen
I can feel it deep inside
There are shadows all around me
Like a bad moon on the rise
I am in over my head
I am in too deep here over my head
I guess I should keep my opinions to myself
I guess I am out of my depth
Out of my depth
Right from the start
I feel like I was born
With an invisible heart
Out of my depth
Seems like everyday
I can't find the words
To make the good things
Come my way
I feel like I am faking it
I feel like I am wrong
I feel like I'm a guest
Like I just do not belong
I am out of my depth
Every single day
I just cannot find the words
To make my monsters go away
Something bad is going to happen
I can feel it deep inside
There are shadows all around me
Like a bad moon on the rise
I am in too deep here over my head
I should seek some professional help
Because I'm out of my depth
Yes, I'm out of my depth
And I am slowly going out of my mind
Oh, go away
Make them go away
Someday I know
I will make them go away
Make them go away
Make them go away
Someday I know
I will make my monsters go away
I am in over my head
I should seek some professional help
I should keep my opinions to myself
I guess I am out of my depth
I am out of my depth
I am out of my depth
I am out of my depth
Yes, I am slowly going out of my mind
You pull me down to the floor of our apartment
A little while later
We are laughing at our carpet burns
I like the way that it glows outside
As the room gets darker
How I wish we could stay like this
While the rest of the world turns
There has never been a time
When I didn't want to be your boyfriend
There has never been a time
When I didn't want to know your name
Free falling from a work in progress
Free falling from a life on hold
There has never been a time
When I didn't want you
My good lover is my one good thing these days
You help me keep it all from slipping away
I swear I'm going to marry you someday, someday
I am all alone and it seems like all I do is wait
Yes, we spend hours on the phone but it's never the same
No, nothing good ever does come easy
Nothing good ever comes without a fight
I am all alone and I wish I was home with you tonight
Yes, my good lover is my one good thing these days
You help me keep it all from slipping away
I swear I'm going to marry you someday
My girlfriend is like magic in the hand
When I lose my sparkle
She's the one that understands
I know I'm going to marry you someday
Yeah, I know I'm going to marry you someday
Yeah, I swear I'm going to marry you someday
Yeah yeah, I swear I'm going to marry you
Someday
Someday
Instrumental
I am all fucked up
And I am ready to break
I don't wanna be the guy
Who is always on the outside
I wanna find my own good place
All fucked up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I am dying on the inside
I want to be happy
But I don't know how
I am all fucked up
And it's always the same
I always get so close
Then I let it get away
I got no one but myself to blame
I'm all fucked up
And I don't know why
If the rest of my life
Is going to be like this
Think I would rather die
I am all fucked up
Yes, I am all fucked up
You're happy
when you are all fucked up
Yes, I am all fucked up
I am all fucked up
Yes, I am ready to break
I don't wanna be the guy
Who is always on the outside
I wanna find my own good place
All fucked up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I'm dying on the inside
I want to be happy now
I am all fucked up
And it is always the same
I always get so close
Then I let it get away
I got no one but myself to blame
I am all fucked up
And I don't know why
If the rest of my life
Is going to be like this
Than I think I would rather die
I am all fucked up
It can come from out of nowhere
Hit you when you're safe and warm
Take it easy my star
Your time is gonna come
Your time is gonna come
Yeah, you got those crazy blye eyes
Yeah, you got those crazy blues
All those pretty smiles
I can see them laughing at you
Your time is gonna come
Your time is gonna come
I don't want to be your punching bag
Your complacent little princess
All tragic and sad
I'm not going to let you overwhelm me anymore
No, not anymore
Yeah, you say you got this bad thing
Yeah, you say you got it bad
You have broken every heart
Of every friend you've ever had
Someday the time will come
When all your friends just go away
I wonder why I stick around
Sometimes I wish you would leave
You say you'll love me forever
Then you spit on me
Your time is gonna come
I swear your time is gonna come
I don't want to be your whipping boy
Your pathetic little loser
Someone you can ignore
I'm not going to let you overwhelm me anymore
I'm not going to let you hurt me anymore
I'm not going to let you hit me anymore
I'm not going to let you kick me anymore
I will not let you overwhelm me anymore
I will not let you overwhelm me anymore
I will not let you overwhelm me anymore
I will not let you overwhelm me anymore
It can come from out of nowhere
I don't want to be your simple saving grace
Just another little victim with a happy face
Someday, someday, someday, someday
Somebody's going to come
I hope they do this to you
I'm not going to let you overwhelm me
I will not let you hurt me anymore
I will not let you hurt me anymore
I will not let you hit me anymore
I will not let you twist me anymore
No, I will not let you turn me inside out
Sometimes I get to a point where
I don't give a damn about anything anymore
Sometimes I get to a point where
I feel numb and I just don't care
Sometimes I feel like I just don't care
Sometimes I feel like I just don't
I sit in my car and listen to the radio
I think about the past and it seems so long ago
I know the pain is slowly gonna fade
This life is gonna get better
Things are gonna be better
I wait until my ex-wife has gone away
I walk around the house
Getting lost inside the old day
I see a picture where everybody's smiling
I know I got to keep it on the inside
I want to get lost from my life sometimes
Sit on the side and watch the world go by
I wanna get lost and I don't know why
Sometimes I want to get lost and I don't know why
Sometimes I want to get lost and just dream for a while
Waiting for my little girl
Waiting on the school bus
We're going to the movies
Yeah just the two of us
Sit inside the dark and dream for awhile
Our life is gonna get better
Yeah, it's gonna be better
I wake up weird in the middle of the night
I walk the floor until my mind gets right
I think about the past and it makes me want to cry
I know I got to keep it on the inside
I want to get lost from my life sometimes
Sit on the side and watch the world go by
I want to get lost in the dark and dream for awhile
Yeah, just sit inside a dark room and dream for awhile
The only thing that ever makes sense to me
Is the words to a song from an American movie
The only thing that ever made sense in my life
Is the sound of my little girl laughing
Alive and happy in the summertime
I am just like everyone I know
I am afraid of things that I don't know
I am afraid of ever really being alone
I want to find myself a brand new heart
I want to find a girl and make a brand new start
I want to find a girl and get lost in the dark
The only thing that ever made sense to me
Is the words to a song from an American movie
The only thing that ever made sense in my life
Is the sound of my little girl laughing
Through the window of a summer night
I sit alone in the backyard
Wishing I could be inside
Just the sound of my little girl laughing
Makes me happy just to be alive
Sometimes I am happy just to be alive
Sometimes I am happy just to be alive